Saturday, October 30, 2004

Shocked no more?

So, i'm here. In the Promised Land. Spending time with Uncle Sam. So am i jumping up and down? Or am i feeing like a 'Stranger in a strange land'?
The thing that has been on my mind is - i am not feeling too different. Sure, I am with couple of collegues and that should help but the fact is that most of people i *see* are Caucaeseans. And have seen fewer and fewer Indians over the last 24 or so hours.
So, is culture shock a thing of the past? Maybe! Most of the news channels carried a lot of US prez election stuff back home as well. I am going to be working on the PC for most of the week and corresponding with friends by accessing Yahoo and Rediff. Toilet paper is available in most loos back home.
The crux of the so called 'Culture shock' is perhaps no longer in the material world anymore. It is in us humans and the ideas they have. If i feel that the steward treats me worse than the 'whites' on board, well then that is primarily my problem. If i feel strange while greeting total strangers, that too is my limitation.
i think it was Lun Tzu who said
"if you see excellence, try to better it. If you see something wrong, look inside yourself".
let me go to sleep doing just that.

Friday, October 01, 2004

give up

i've given up on myself. just plain dissatisfaction with the way i have lived my life. and the worst part is that i don't see any change in the near or distant future(what is that?!)
the problem is that i am wanting to do/ trying to do instead of just doing. rather, not doing is making me want to do/ try to do.